I’m finding it a bit hard to concentrate on anything other than keeping up with the news. I know it’s not a particularly helpful nor healthy thing to do for every waking moment, but it’s hard not to when there’s been a helicopter circling over your area nearly 24 hours for the past three days. Protests have come near and through my neighborhood. And it turned out that supremacists have infiltrated protests as rioters, then some people use the rioting as an excuse to ignore the message of the peaceful protests. The people making trouble in Detroit and getting arrested for the most part are people who don’t even live here. The disaster of a president has called people who are against fascism terrorists, and I read that homophobes are planning to be even bigger pieces of trash in June with a barrage of cyber attacks. Why are there people who have nothing better to do than to spew this hate? Whatever answer could be given, it still wouldn’t make sense.
I haven’t felt this disappointed and anxious since the night Tr*mp was declared the winner of the 2016 election. At the same time, this is basically what I was afraid would happen back then. Real life becoming a dystopian novel.
I watched the SpaceX launch yesterday and thought about the irony(?) of such a sign of progress as sending humans to outer space against the backdrop of such unchanging willful ignorance as people continuing to try to defend the actions of a police officer kneeling on the neck of a man who was already cuffed. The ignorance of people saying looting wouldn’t bring back George Floyd as if they honestly failed to grasp that at this point it’s about so much more than one murder, it’s about the whole system of institutionalized racism that manifests as unarmed Black men being killed by armed police; as Black people dying in greater numbers from Covid-19 due to being more likely not to have access to adequate healthcare while also being more likely to be “essential” workers getting exposed to the virus; it manifests as Black patients with diabetes being more likely to be told they have to have a limb amputated with no real effort made to attempt to save their limbs. We say things like “This shouldn’t happen in 2020” as if we believe that progress happens automatically with the forward flow of time. But it takes deliberate work to build rockets. It takes deliberate work to progress and advance from such a lowly place as a country built on genocide and slavery. But the people unwilling to do the work hold us back as a society.
I don’t have a good way to end this post. I’m just writing out my thoughts right now. Hoping the country can get off this course it’s on, and turn toward the road of attempting to live by the ideals written in its founding documents that nevertheless have never come to pass, “with liberty and justice for all.”